CANT SLEEP

So it is 4:17 in the morning, and I cannot fall asleep. I have so much running through my head right now its kind of rediculous. I've had a pretty weird day, not to mention a kind of off weekend. A lot happened today, some might blame the full moon. So much has been going on in my life lately its all starting to get to me, and I can feel my stress level sky-rocketing.

Last week, one of my friend's parents passed away. This has made me think about my parents alot. I would say that my biggest fear, in the entire world right now would be the death of my parents. I know that death can happen at any given time, to any one person. But this is something that I think about alot because I am a special case. My parents are older than most, so it seems more relevant. I will probably make a trip home to see them soon, just to ease my psyche.

Another event that has impacted my day greatly is the fact that one of my (former) fraternity brothers has been explelled from the chapter, and it is tearing up our fraternity at a crucial time for us, because we are approaching Spring Rush. The entire situation is really messed up, and everyone is reacting in their own way. This kid has become one of my good friends this past school year, and I plan on living with him this upcoming school year. Idk, it just makes you wonder who you can trust, and its crazy how much every organization has its politics. I know he was in the wrong, thats why I am not freaking out as much, but the manner of which this happend is so outrageous, it angers me and many of my brothers.

Along with all of this extra nonsense, I am on my way to falling behind in school. This is probably the primary reason why I am so stressed out right now. I have a test on friday, for a class that I barely take notes in, due to the crappy teacher, and I also have a book report due on a historical novel that I just started today. HAHA. Somebody shoot me now.

But I can go on for days about the things that aren't too peachy in my life right now, but im not going to. One thing that I have realized is that I am lost right now. By lost I mean, I have fell out of touch with what should be most important to me, and this would be GOD, and the LORD OUR SAVIOUR, Jesus Christ. Since I've been back at school, I have only gone to church one sunday out of the three. I haven't been reading my Bible, nor have I been praying. All of this is taking a toll on me mentally and spiritually. But I know what I have to do to get back on track. One thing that is really amazing to me is last week in church, I was surprised to see a couple of friends attending as well. That put a smile in my heart and I was so proud of one individual specifically. I thank God for the friends that I have, and I know that I am in these people's lives for a reason, as they are in mine. My job is just to be the best Individual I can be, and be a positive influence to those around me.

Thanks for taking the time to read this really long blog. I had to crack open the good ol' laptop to get this down. Something was just eating at me and I had to get all of these thoughts out. Venting is the BEST therapy, and I encourage everyone to do it.

Until Next Time,

JK.